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Friday, July 15th, 2005
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3:45 am - Girl
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I met this girl yesterday evening for a 'date' and realized how BAD I am at dating! I haven't got that secret knack that some people do... I'm a bit ackward, and a lot nervous, although my date didn't seem to notice, I nearly passed out! She was very nice, I hope I will see her again, but I was trying to play it 'cool' which probably didn't work, since my hands shook a bit during dinner. Anyway she's called Amy and she asked if we'd see each other again and I said I'd really like to, so wish me luck! It would be so great to finally spend time with a nice woman again, it's been such a long time since I broke up with Jenn that I can't imagine being close again, but I'd really love to be.
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| Thursday, July 14th, 2005
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10:15 am - Femme
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I've always been femme, but I don't like really butchy women, I guess I fit in the middle somewhere. The weather here is so hot it's prohibitive to go outdoors, I wanted to go down to the coast but it would take too long. I have started participating in a few online chat groups and met some people to go out to dinner with here in Austin, they're mostly my age and like dinner clubs, which is good for me because I like to eat, even when it's hot.
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| Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
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8:51 am - Rain
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I'm joining some of the communities which is fun.
It hasn't rained in ages, I wish it would, I love the rain.
I miss going to museums.
I miss good noodle bars.
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| Monday, July 11th, 2005
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10:18 pm
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I'm wondering if this is going to work out. I have spent a lot of time online and haven't met anyone online that I really connected with but you never know. Meanwhile I'm going to try to write regular and see what comes of this. There is a purpose to everything I guess.
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| Sunday, July 10th, 2005
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11:50 pm - Frustration
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I realize I have been imagining being taken out on a date, wined and dined, and then made love to, for over an hour. I don't want to just sleep with someone but I do hunger for that closeness and attachment between two people who like each other. I went out on 6th Street and I only saw drunken fools, I guess I'm going to start watching a lot of TV or something.
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11:01 am - Hope
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Everyone seems younger than me here, which is okay but I like older women. I haven't had a lot of relationships but I'm very confident and happy with those I have, and I want to be sure that the next one I'm in, is the real deal and lasts. I think the reason this doesn't happen isn't about being gay so much as not meeting the right person. Maybe being in Austin I won't meet that person, until I one-day move back to NYC but I hope to.
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| Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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11:54 pm - Today
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I'm imagining what it would be like to not feel lonely, and to meet someone I could be really close to, and to share our lives. I imagine this and I think about feeling passionate rather than just sexual and it makes me smile. But meanwhile I'm writing on an online journal and not living this life, which bursts the bubble. I'm going to have some wine.
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10:50 am - I'm new to this
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Hey
I'm new to this.
Wanting to connect with similar-minded people, I'm searching for one special woman, and I know what I want, but it's hard to find in Austin. I hope to move back to NYC someday but right now my job keeps me here. I earn good money, but I'm missing something, someone. I like eroticism, I want to find someone who I can share things with, be with, hopefully for a long, long time.
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